Letters to Baby, 5

Dear N~,

You're just over 20 months, now. And our family's been through some changes the past several months. We did a big move, and we're going to be moving yet again pretty soon. You're not only walking now, but running and climbing. You're starting to talk - learning new words and phrases every day, it seems.

Mommy and Daddy are very fortunate right now. Neither of us are working, partly because it'd be difficult to find a job for only a few months before we move again. Grandma and Grandpa - my parents - have been very generous to let us stay here with them while we get on our feet. Daddy has been able to apply to school because of them. And the three of us have been able to spend lots of time together. I feel so blessed that we get this time together, where you get to have a lot of quality time with both your parents. I hope that this creates a solid foundation for you - that you'll always know that you have two parents who care for you deeply.

There are so many details of who you are right now that I don't want to forget. Your favorite show is Mickey Mouse Clubhouse. You seriously get SO excited when the show comes on. You're already learning to count, though I don't think you know what the words mean, even if you can kinda say "one, two, three". You pick up things so fast! I'm constantly amazed by how quickly you learn things. You love cars and trucks. Your favorite book is Curious George, and you flip through it at every opportunity. You've torn some of the pages from how vigorously you turn them. You seem to like pickles, even though both me and your dad hate them. It's strange how tastes work.

You're smart and affectionate and silly. You have an easy, infectious laugh. I love your laugh. And your smile. You have the sweetest smile ever. You're bossy, and you really know how to communicate what you want. You push and drag me and your dad and Grandma and Grandpa all over the house, so you can show us what you want.

It'll be nice when we can communicate with you more easily. But I know I'll mourn the loss of the little toddler you are right now. You're freaking adorable. You're seriously the cutest thing I've ever come across, and I used to have white fluffy puppies. And I know some of it is probably my Mommy Bias talking, but everybody we meet - strangers at the store or on the street - gush about how cute you are. So, I may be biased, but I also know it's true. So there!

I'm not sure what I'm trying to say here. Only that you are just the best thing ever. I don't know when you'll get the chance to read this, but whatever's going on in your life, I hope this brings a smile to your face and warmth to your heart. Your dad and I love you to bits. You are the highlight of my life. I am so grateful to have you for a son. Being a mom isn't easy. Not for anyone. But I have never felt so willing or ready to face whatever difficulties may come. You are worth it all. You're incredible, and I love you more than anything.

Love always,
Mom