Case of the Blahs

Short post, since I should really be getting to bed soon.

I've really lost whatever hope I had of starting off this quarter on the right foot. I'm already behind in my classes because of all the remaining stuff I had to do for my exam, and the situation isn't helped by the fact that I don't actually want to go to my classes. One is interesting enough, but I'm so behind on my reading even though I'm following what's going on in class. The second one is just incredibly tedious, and a little too time-consuming for it to be interesting for me. I'm so busy trying to figure out what the words are in each passage, that I don't even have the time to put it together and understand what's going on in the story. I think it's gotten to the point where, though I want to try harder and do better, I'm getting discouraged and just concentrating on keeping my head above water. I want to do more than try to just pass the class, but I think that's where the quarter's headed. Which, ironically, makes me less motivated to try hard. Isn't it funny how these things work?

I really just need a break, and I miss my husband. He was away all weekend, from Friday to Monday, and he was only back for a day before he took off again. I don't blame him, really, cuz how often does he get to hang out with old friends? Once or twice every couple years isn't much at all. And he gets bored with me doing school stuff all the time. But I don't like being home alone, and it's really quiet without him here. I'm supposed to be studying and doing productive things while he's away, but I'm finding that to be rather difficult. Being alone makes me feel like holing up in the apartment and not doing anything or going anywhere. Maybe it's just me being grumpy, but I really wish he hadn't planned all these trips so close together. I think he underestimates how much he keeps my sanity in check, and I could really use some sanity in the coming weeks.